number 17...

Have you ever read the side of your Starbucks cup? I normally read them and don't really care too much so I throw them away... but I really liked mine today! Maybe I'll start reading them more.

The Way I See It #17

The world bursts at the seams with people ready to tell you you're not good enough. On occasion, some may be correct. But do not do their work for them. Seek any job; ask anyone out; pursue any goal. Don't take it personally when they say "no" - they may not be smart enough to say "yes."

-- Keith Olbermann

Broadcast journalist and host of MSNBC's Countdown with Keith Olbermann

so this is what it's like

So, I guess I have to start being an adult now. I am 21 years old, I am WAY more than half way done with college, and I've got a whole lot on my plate. In some ways it is so exciting... that doesn't stop me from being scared out of my mind though. Once I leave Cal Poly, I am on my own. Like, getting my own job, paying my own rent, living my own life. I'm scared.

This weekend has a lot to do with planning for the future. It's amazing how one year makes a whole lot of difference. Last year at this time I was barely thinking about graduation. I was actually too freaked out about going to Spain to worry about much of anything else. Next year at this time I will be a quarter and a half away from graduation and I will be looking for long term jobs that will be able to pay the rent and maybe promote me in the future so that I can make a career out of it. Crazy.

Anyway, like I said, this weekend I have a lot to do. Here's a peak into my to-do list:

1. complete my resume and send it to my parents so they can take a look at it and help me edit it so that I can send it to possible businesses where I may be able to get an internship
2. e-mail/interview people about my article for Polyscript Magazine and write my article ASAP
3. e-mail people and companies about internships
4. do my laundry (I know, very grown up)
5. plan out my classes for the rest of college and figure out a way that I can take enough units to stay in school for the next four quarters
6. plan out my schedule for next quarter

As pertains to number 5, I met with my adviser on Monday and he asked why I'm not graduating this upcoming spring. When I told him it was because I am minoring in Spanish, he asked why I am not graduating next fall. Way to freak me out Dr. H! So now I am so worried about my grades, graduation date, living in the real world, etc. What am I supposed to do with my life?!?! Between you and me, I'm scared.

Naturally, when I'm scared, I revert to old habits from when I was younger. As for tonight, I'm watching the OC from the very first episode. Ryan is SO hott!!! How come I can't find a guy who looks like him? Or Seth, I'd be okay with that too! Welcome to a glimpse into my freshman year of high school. I'm such an adult... 7 years later. (Holy crap, has it really been that long?) -- p.s. It's funny to listen to the music they played in these shows because I actually listened to this stuff... crazy
Marissa: Who are you?
Ryan: Whoever you want me to be.

I don't wanna grow up

The second star to the right
Shines in the night for you
To tell you that the dreams you plan
Really can come true

This past weekend was so much fun! I got to hang out with all of my best friends and I couldn't have asked for anything more.

Friday I had dinner with Kat, then got to watch Definitely Maybe with Nikol, Kat, and Jessica.

Saturday I got to hang out with Christine and Steph during the day. I also got to get ready with Steph, Christine, Jessica, Nikol, and Kat for the Dirty Disney party at Beta. My room mates and I were Lost Boys from Peter Pan, Kat was Alice from Alice in Wonderland, Jess was Belle from Beauty and the Beast, and Nikol was Mrs. Incredible (Robert was her matching "Mr. Incredible" ... very fitting) Despite the fact that I have bruises on my body, my shoes are caked in mud, i have a bruise on my head from hitting it last night when I was going to bed, and I can't move my arm because my shoulder hurts SO FREAKING MUCH, last night was so much fun! Here are a few pictures:

 Lost Girls

 

Dirty Disney

Me and Kat

Me and Nikol

Alice, Lost Girls, Mrs. Incredible, Belle 

The fact that the three of us were Lost Girls was so fitting because Peter Pan is one of my favorite movies of all time. When I got sick when I was little and my dad would stay home with me from work, I used to make him watch Peter Pan on repeat ALL DAY!! What a dedicated and loving father I have. Because of that, I can probably recite the entire movie. Oh wait, did I mention that I was Tinkerbell for Halloween in 8th grade? Or that I have the entire Peter Pan sound track on my iPod? Well, I was, and I do.

Today is Maryn's birthday so I got to go to Hannah and Caroline's apartment and celebrate with the three of them while we ate Pita Pit and chocolate chip cookies. It was nice and relaxing.

The other day I checked my MySpace for the first time in months/years. Beyond reading my entire blog that I had posted on that (more on that in another post), I also looked at all the pictures and videos I have posted on my page. Here is a quick glimpse into 17-year-old me and what I had on my MySpace page:

This video still gives me chills. I love it! "The Kiss" from The Notebook

 

Me and the girls I grew up with at my mom's wedding sophomore year of high school

  

Me and my junior prom date, Garrett, before the dance. (I wasn't dating him, he was one of my good friends' boyfriends. I just borrowed him for the night because they went to a different school and he was a year older.)

My profile picture (my sister and I in Turks and Caicos on Thanksgiving during my senior year of high school)

 

Senior year Halloween with my best friend, Katelin (one of my only best friends that I DIDN'T see this weekend!).  She was a butterfly, I was a lady bug

Me and Danielle. I've known her my entire life. We even lived two houses away when we were growing up!

 

Me, Amanda, Emily, Courtney, and Ali when we got evicted on our senior trip to Hawaii after graduation.

My senior portrait

*Thank you Nikol and Christine for the Dirty Disney pictures!

Winnie's words of wisdom

If you live to be 100, I hope to live to be 100 minus one day so I never have to live without you.
-Winnie the Pooh

That's right, this is my 100th blog post, and one month shy of exactly a year since I really started writing here!! Naturally, I'm celebrating it by sitting on Nikol and Kat's couch, watching Definitely Maybe (Ryan Reynolds is HOT), eating popcorn (of course) and hanging out with Nikol, Kat, and Jess. Did I mention we're all comfy in our sweats? Oh, and that it's Friday night? Haha it's okay, these are the night that I absolutely love. I've missed these girls. This is the first night I've had to hang out with them since I've been back and I am so happy to be here.

There have been big changed in my life within the past two weeks, and I figure this blog is as good as any to post about them.

1. I dropped my business minor. I would have had to take way too many units each quarter to graduate on time, and it wasn't worth it to me. I ran around the journalism department talking to my adviser, the head of the department, as well as the public relations guru (yes, Professor Swanson is a guru in my book), and after I talked to Swanson I felt I had a HUGE weight lifted off my shoulders. He told me that I needed work experience, that I would go crazy taking that many units (it would have been 22 units this quarter) , and that I am in college and should spend my time having fun, not just bogged down with class and homework all the time. Great advice!!

2. So not only did I drop my business minor, I got a job in the business dean's office (a job that I wouldn't be able to have if I was a minor). I work for the event coordinator so I get to be part in the planning and organization of alumni events and special speakers in the college of business. This means I will be making and saving money.

3. Don't worry, I still have my Spanish minor. Although I'm struggling a bit with my class (it is a Spanish literature class), for one hour every Monday through Thursday I get to hear the language and speak the language and in a weird way, it makes me feel like I'm home. There are 9 of us in that class who went to Spain, so I don't have to go too far out of my way to see them. It's nice, and comforting.

4. I am OKAY being single. I'm actually having time to myself and time to spend with friends and all of that. It really is great. Not that I don't get lonely, but I am okay for right now.

Anyway, I'm glad I have this blog as an outlet. I hope that I keep growing and changing and accomplishing whatever it is I'm supposed to accomplish at this point. I have no idea what that is. I still have no idea who I am, but I hope to find myself eventually. Maybe I will, maybe I won't. In any case, thank you for being along for the ride. Thank you for reading my blog for the past 100 posts, I hope you will stay around for the next hundred so you can see me grow. Sometimes I think it's easier to see the changes in others than it is to see them in yourself.

When I was little, my mom would read me stories from Winnie the Pooh. I have a collection of hard cover, old fashioned Winnie the Pooh books, the kind that you don't appreciate until you are all grown up and realize how much of a blessing those things are. He, Piglet, and the whole gang are some of my favorite cartoon characters. They are inspiring and really help us to stay young at heart. The stories (especially the old ones), despite the young appearance, show us how to imagine, and impart great wisdom on us through their words and love for each other. I know it sounds cheesy, but it's true.

As a parting thought, I'd like to ask you this question: How have you seen me change within the past year? How have you seen me grow since I've known you? How have YOU changed within the past year? How have you grown? I want to hear those things, because sometimes I feel as though I haven't changed. Sometimes it feels like I haven't grown. I think reflection is so important.

If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together... there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think, but the most important thing is, even if we're apart, I'll always be with you. - Winnie the Pooh

Promise me you'll never forget me, because if I thought you would, I'd never leave. - Winnie the Pooh

 

In the words of Eeyore, "Thanks for noticing little me." 

 

what a WONDERFUL life

Clarence: Strange, isn't it? Each man's life touches so many other lives. When he isn't around he leaves an awful hole, doesn't he? 

Okay, so I know I already posted something about Christmas, but I feel as though this is extremely noteworthy (yes... even more noteworthy than Lady GaGa's "light me up put me on top" song).

Every year my family all gets together and watches the Christmas classic "It's a Wonderful Life". We all set aside time, sit down on the couch, pop in the VHS (yes, we only have it on video), pay close attention, and watch the movie. At the end we all make fun of Daddy for crying, but only after we have all wiped away our tears first.

That movie is one of the greatest movies ever made. The story line is fantastic. It is, at least for me, about the true spirit of the season. Even if you are not Christian, I think that "It's a Wonderful Life" is a fantastic movie. It is not even about Christmas at all! Sure, they have the decorations and stuff but the story is what makes it important. The way the movie makes you think, the way it makes you wish you could have the moon lassoed for you, and the way you can relate to the characters and the way your heart melts when George Bailey runs in his house after his great realization about his life and scoops up his children, kisses his wife, and realizes how amazing life really is.



That is what Christmas is all about.

I love this movie. I love this season. I love my family (even though THIS year they watched the movie WITHOUT me... but don't worry, I have it memorized. Maybe I'll watch it tomorrow night by myself).

Here are some of my favorite quotes :) MERRY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!

George Bailey: What is it you want, Mary? What do you want? You want the moon? Just say the word and I'll throw a lasso around it and pull it down. Hey. That's a pretty good idea. I'll give you the moon, Mary.
Mary: I'll take it. Then what?
George Bailey: Well, then you can swallow it, and it'll all dissolve, see... and the moonbeams would shoot out of your fingers and your toes and the ends of your hair... am I talking too much?

 Mary: Bread... that this house may never know hunger.
[Mary hands a loaf of bread to Mrs. Martini]
Mary: Salt... that life may always have flavor.
[Mary hands a box of salt to Mrs. Martini]
George Bailey: And wine... that joy and prosperity may reign forever. Enter the Martini Castle.
[George hands Mr. Martini a bottle of wine]

 Little Violet: [commenting on George] I like him.
Little Mary: You like every boy.
Little Violet: What's wrong with that?

 Little Mary: Is this the ear you can't hear on?
[whispering in his bad ear]
Little Mary: George Bailey, I'll love you 'til the day I die.

(last lines)
Zuzu Bailey: Look, Daddy. Teacher says, every time a bell rings an angel gets his wings.
George Bailey: That's right, that's right.
George Bailey: Attaboy, Clarence.

who said it's over?

Okay, I love the show Greek. It is on ABC Family and it is one of those shows with not so great acting, but I am such a hopeless romantic, it is just the kind of show that I absolutely LOVE!! If you haven't watched it, please do. Casey and Cappie are absolutely adorable and when I watched the Thanksgiving episode from this most recent season I actually teared up. Yes, that's right, I'm a sap. But it's so adorable!!  I know that TV shows aren't reality, I know that love doesn't always work this way, but it is the Notebook effect. You watch it and you just feel like at some point you will meet someone who will change your entire life and you will be so happy and you just know that you are supposed to be with them because you are soul mates or lobsters (yes, that was a Friends reference), or whatever cheesy love story title you want to add to it. Not kidding, this is adorable and I absolutely love it. Even in crappy times when I don't have someone to hold me or kiss me or whatever, even when I can't think of an ex-boyfriend who could become that one for me or come up with a potential future boyfriend who will make me feel this way... it still makes me happy to know that people DO have these relationships. They do fall in love and it does last and sometimes, people do mean it when they tell you that they love you.

Casey: I know where I wanna be in ten years, do you?
Cappie: I wanna be with you!

Casey: Why can't you find someone else who's perfect for you?
Cappie: Because no other girl in the world compares to you.



Casey: Yo know, Cap, I hope I didn't hurt you when I ended things
Cappie: who said it's over?

Must Have Done Something Right

We should get jerseys cause we make a good team
But yours would look better than mine, cause you're outta my league
-Relient K



Dunno who that is for, but I just liked the lyrics!

it still isn't over

I have this poster in my room hehe

I watched The Notebook today with Christine and Gare Bear. I know I've probably written about that movie before, but I can't help writing about it again. It is one of the most epic love stories I have ever heard. It is incredibly romantic. I hope that I can find a guy who is even half as devoted and in love as Noah Calhoun.

Allie: How come you didn't write? I waited for you for seven years. It wasn't over for me!
Noah: I did write. I wrote you 365 letters. I wrote to you for a year. It wasn't over. It still isn't over.
(commence epic love scene)


Now, I'm not saying that I would want to wait around for some guy for 7 years. I'm not saying that I would sit here and pine over someone who I didn't think cared about me or wait around for him because I expected whoever "he" may be to come back to me... but it is interesting to think about. What if the person you dated when you were in high school or early years of college came back into your life somewhere down the road and ended up being the person you were meant to be with?

We aren't all lucky enough to have epic romances like Noah and Allie... but we can definitely dream. Oh well.

P.S. I'm still holding out for Ryan Gosling and Rachel McAdams to get back together in real life. I absolutely LOVE them together.
P.P.S. Christine and I went to see The Time Traveler's Wife yesterday. Very good movie. Very sad story. Loved it. Once again... epic love

compliments to the...

I think people should take more time to notice things about other people and compliment them. It is a confidence boost the entire way around.

People should also learn how to accept compliments. Saying "thank you" is perfectly acceptable. As is responding with another compliment, as in: "Wow, I like your shirt" "Oh thanks, your hair looks nice today" "Thank you!" el fin

Today I got complimented on my outfit at work from a girl who was waiting in line at my fitting room and it was wonderful. Then, I went to Beverly's to buy canvases ($1.86 for a 16x20 canvas!! that is UNHEARD of) and the girl at the register stopped in the middle of her sentence and said, "Not to sound creepy, but you have beautiful eyes" ... something I am choosing to take as a compliment instead of viewing it as weird that she was staring at me so intently, haha.

Anyway, take time to compliment people!! It's definitely something that can make someone's day!!

(Note to Forever 21: Not cool to switch around our work locations and throw everybody off. I feel bad for those people who were closing tonight. There were piles of go-backs when I left at 2:30)

"I'm not good with big spoons unless there's ice cream on the end" - Gilmore Girls

redecorating via the internet

Since I have started writing this blog, there is no need for my Facebook page to be so cluttered. This blog is just a list of all the quotes I had posted on my Facebook page. Lets be realistic... nobody looking at my Facebook page is going to read all those quotes. Maybe I'll keep one or two of them on there, but for the most part I'm just going to move my quotes to my blog. I have some time to myeslf this afternoon so after I post this blog, I'm going to redecorate my blog and make the appearance say more about me.

Anyway, here are the quotes I have posted on my Facebook page as of now. I have so many more quotes and stuff saved on my computer, I love quotes so much. I think the words of singers, poets, television shows, and books can say so much about life. I love them. I will include more in my blog at some other point. As for now, here is what I've got so far...

"It's twilight," Edward murmured, looking at the western horizon, obscured as it was with clouds. His voice was thoughtful, as if his mind were somewhere far away. "It's the safest time of day for us," he said. "The easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way.... the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" He smiled wistfully.
"I like the night. Without the dark, we'd never see the stars."-Twilight by Stephenie Meyer, p 232

"You can drive at 16, go to war at 18, drink at 21, and retire at 65. How old do you have to be before your love is real?" -Haley's dad, One Tree Hill

If you're lucky, and I mean the luckiest person in the world, the person you love decides to love you back. -Nathan, One Tree Hill

Nathan: You were right Peyton, people always leave.
Peyton: Yeah, but sometimes they come back
-One Tree Hill

Things will happen in life that you can't control but that's no reason to shut out the world - Crazy Pete, Now and Then

"I came here, because I have to tell you. You have to know. You're smart and funny and sweet, and your eyes make me melt, and I feel something with you I've never felt before, ever, for anyone. Something real. " -Becca, Bass Ackwards and Belly Up by Elizabeth Craft and Sarah Fain

George Michael: I have Pop-Pop in the attic.
Michael: What? The mere fact that you call making love "pop pop" tells me you're not ready
-Arrested Development

Unfortunately the hard part isn't making the decision, the hard part is living with the decision you make. - Casey, Greek

Casey: I know where I want to be in ten years, do you?
Cappie: Yeah, I want to be with you
-Greek

Polar bears are the einsteins of the bear community! - Charlie, LOST

I would rather fight with you than make love to anybody else - Nick Mercer, The Wedding Date

The perfect words never crossed my mind because there was nothing in there but you. - Snow Patrol

The best kind of love is not always an easy road because life will throw you curve balls- people change, people grow and sad things happen sometimes. I think the greatest loves are those that have overcome obstacles because they have withstood those things that life can throw at them. That kind of love is beautiful. -The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. Love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones that don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it and if it changes your life, let it. no one said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it. - Unknown

It's not that I can't live without you, it's that I don't even want to try. -Unknown (I am trying to remember where this one came from, when I figure it out, I'll post it)