Wednesday, December 30, 2009

can I get that in writing?

For the past few hours I have been watching TV and looking at's "Best of 2009" lists. One of the things I stumbled upon was a picture of Megan Fox and the tattoo she has on her shoulder. I am oddly fascinated by tattoos and their meanings, and this girl has a lot! Now, I'm not a huge fan of Megan Fox. I think she is kinda boring and, sure, she's pretty, but I thought that was all she had going for her. Even then, sometimes I don't think she is that attractive because she tries to hard.

When I searched for her tattoos on Google, I found a few different sites that talked about the meaning of each of her tattoos. I thought it was fascinating! Maybe I'm weird, but I really think that tattoos are cool if they have the right meaning behind them. Although the sites I looked at were all speculation and nobody actually knows what the meanings are, I liked two of the quotes that she has and it seems as though there is more to this girl than I originally thought.

"We will all laugh at gilded butterflies"

 According to my online research, this tattoo is a quote from Shakespeare's "King Lear" when he finds out that his daughters have betrayed him. One of the best explanations I've found for this tattoo is that a gilded butterfly only gives the appearance of gold, but is not actually gold. It is no longer useful and it loses its natural beauty. If you are smart enough (as, I suppose, King Lear was... although I have never read the play and am not a big Shakespeare buff), you will realize that appearances aren't everything and that sometimes there is much more than outer beauty (or much less!). For those of us who are smart enough to figure that out, I think it is justified to laugh at those who still believe that appearances of gold and beauty are everything.

Another person who posted their opinion on a blog called "Useless Things" believes that the quote means "I search for authenticity" which is a pretty awesome analysis if I do say so myself. The person goes into a deep analysis about the correlation with the Marilyn Monroe tattoo on one of Fox's arms, but I won't bore you with that. I do believe that the search for authenticity in Fox's line of business is extremely important. Authenticity is something that everybody should strive for, no matter who you are or what you do with your life. Very deep Megan Fox, very deep. (Not to mention that I just really like the way the quote is phrased, very poetic. Thank you William Shakespeare.)

 "There once was a little girl who never knew love until a boy broke her heart"

With this one, I didn't find anything too interesting about this, except that I like the quote. Apparently it is part of a poem that she wrote, and eventually got tattooed on herself. It is so true, though! You never know your full ability to love somebody until they are gone. A broken heart is the hardest way to figure out how much someone means to you. I'm not sure the meaning behind this quote for Fox, but I know that for me it would express the pain of being hurt so bad by someone I loved, but joy and happiness at the knowledge that I am able to love that much at all.

I have always loved tattoos with script, as long as the script is something insightful and meaningful to the person with the tattoo. I want one so bad, but I have no idea what or where I would get! I don't want to get one just for the sake of having a tattoo. I have some friends with pretty sweet tattoos, but nothing has come to mind for myself yet, so until then I will wait.

According to Fox, every time she gets a tattoo it's a little "Fuck You" to everybody who tells her not to.... interesting.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

i know you want pop

I guess every year a DJ named DJ Earworm puts together a music video of all of the top hits for that year. I stumbled upon this year's because it has been posted on people's Twitters and Facebooks. He did a fantastic job putting this all together. It's cool to listen to as well as see the music video.

Check it out!

If you want to check out his website, here is the link:

Thursday, December 24, 2009

what a WONDERFUL life

Clarence: Strange, isn't it? Each man's life touches so many other lives. When he isn't around he leaves an awful hole, doesn't he? 

Okay, so I know I already posted something about Christmas, but I feel as though this is extremely noteworthy (yes... even more noteworthy than Lady GaGa's "light me up put me on top" song).

Every year my family all gets together and watches the Christmas classic "It's a Wonderful Life". We all set aside time, sit down on the couch, pop in the VHS (yes, we only have it on video), pay close attention, and watch the movie. At the end we all make fun of Daddy for crying, but only after we have all wiped away our tears first.

That movie is one of the greatest movies ever made. The story line is fantastic. It is, at least for me, about the true spirit of the season. Even if you are not Christian, I think that "It's a Wonderful Life" is a fantastic movie. It is not even about Christmas at all! Sure, they have the decorations and stuff but the story is what makes it important. The way the movie makes you think, the way it makes you wish you could have the moon lassoed for you, and the way you can relate to the characters and the way your heart melts when George Bailey runs in his house after his great realization about his life and scoops up his children, kisses his wife, and realizes how amazing life really is.

That is what Christmas is all about.

I love this movie. I love this season. I love my family (even though THIS year they watched the movie WITHOUT me... but don't worry, I have it memorized. Maybe I'll watch it tomorrow night by myself).

Here are some of my favorite quotes :) MERRY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!

George Bailey: What is it you want, Mary? What do you want? You want the moon? Just say the word and I'll throw a lasso around it and pull it down. Hey. That's a pretty good idea. I'll give you the moon, Mary.
Mary: I'll take it. Then what?
George Bailey: Well, then you can swallow it, and it'll all dissolve, see... and the moonbeams would shoot out of your fingers and your toes and the ends of your hair... am I talking too much?

 Mary: Bread... that this house may never know hunger.
[Mary hands a loaf of bread to Mrs. Martini]
Mary: Salt... that life may always have flavor.
[Mary hands a box of salt to Mrs. Martini]
George Bailey: And wine... that joy and prosperity may reign forever. Enter the Martini Castle.
[George hands Mr. Martini a bottle of wine]

 Little Violet: [commenting on George] I like him.
Little Mary: You like every boy.
Little Violet: What's wrong with that?

 Little Mary: Is this the ear you can't hear on?
[whispering in his bad ear]
Little Mary: George Bailey, I'll love you 'til the day I die.

(last lines)
Zuzu Bailey: Look, Daddy. Teacher says, every time a bell rings an angel gets his wings.
George Bailey: That's right, that's right.
George Bailey: Attaboy, Clarence.

in the name of the season


I just got back to my house from our Christmas Eve service at church and when I signed on to Facebook, there were about 15 people with "light me up put me on top falalalalalalalala" as their statuses. Naturally, I had to look it up and see what all the hype was about. Apparently it's a Lady GaGa song. Of course, it's dirty.

Anyway, I thought it was funny so here is the video that I found on YouTube.

What is our society coming to?

Anyway, happy holidays!


Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Friday, December 18, 2009


I am finally back at home where I belong.

After 48 hours of buses, flying, cars, and only about 5 hours of sleep, I made it back home.

Daddy picked me up from the airport.

I saw Mommy at Church.

Grandma made me my favorite soup for dinner.

I fell dead asleep in my own bed at 9 p.m.

Today I got to get bagels with Katelin and it was wonderful to see her after 4 months of not seeing or talking to her.

I can't wait to see my sisters and the rest of my friends and family.

Next week is CHRISTMAS!!!

<3 it feels good to be home

Sunday, December 13, 2009

who said it's over?

Okay, I love the show Greek. It is on ABC Family and it is one of those shows with not so great acting, but I am such a hopeless romantic, it is just the kind of show that I absolutely LOVE!! If you haven't watched it, please do. Casey and Cappie are absolutely adorable and when I watched the Thanksgiving episode from this most recent season I actually teared up. Yes, that's right, I'm a sap. But it's so adorable!!  I know that TV shows aren't reality, I know that love doesn't always work this way, but it is the Notebook effect. You watch it and you just feel like at some point you will meet someone who will change your entire life and you will be so happy and you just know that you are supposed to be with them because you are soul mates or lobsters (yes, that was a Friends reference), or whatever cheesy love story title you want to add to it. Not kidding, this is adorable and I absolutely love it. Even in crappy times when I don't have someone to hold me or kiss me or whatever, even when I can't think of an ex-boyfriend who could become that one for me or come up with a potential future boyfriend who will make me feel this way... it still makes me happy to know that people DO have these relationships. They do fall in love and it does last and sometimes, people do mean it when they tell you that they love you.

Casey: I know where I wanna be in ten years, do you?
Cappie: I wanna be with you!

Casey: Why can't you find someone else who's perfect for you?
Cappie: Because no other girl in the world compares to you.

Casey: Yo know, Cap, I hope I didn't hurt you when I ended things
Cappie: who said it's over?

Saturday, December 12, 2009

I'm feeling the way you cross my mind

Laura just reintroduced me to this song by Michelle Branch and Santana. Although it can be viewed as a romantic or love song, that's not how I'm "feeling it" right now. I'm feeling my friends in Spain, my friends at home and at Poly, my family, this experience in Spain, and just appreciating life a lot. Maybe I'm taking the song in the wrong context, but that's how I'm feeling right now.

Last night was an absolutely wonderful last Friday night in Valladolid, I had so much freaking fun! But now I get to spend the rest of my day doing homework and studying for finals. There you go - the highs and lows.

Anyway, here is the music video and the lyrics. I'm sure you've heard the song before, but I just thought it was wonderful. Thanks Laura!

Sometimes, I imagine the world without you
But most times, I’m just so happy that I ever found you
It’s a complicated web, that you weave inside my head
So much pleasure with such pain
Hope we always, always stay the same

I’m feelin’ the way you cross my mind
And you save me in the nick of time
I’m ridin’ the highs, I’m diggin’ the lows
‘Cause at least I feel alive
I’ve never faced so many emotional days
But my life is good
I’m feelin’ you
I’m feelin’ you

You go, and then I can finally breathe in
‘Cause baby I know, in the end you’re never leavin’
Well we’re rarely ever sane, I drive you crazy and you do the same
But your fire fills my soul
And it warms me up like no one knows

'Cause I’m feelin’ the way you cross my mind
And you save me in the nick of time
I’m ridin’ the highs, I’m diggin’ the lows
‘Cause at least I feel alive
I’ve never faced so many emotional days
But my life is good
I’m feelin’ you
I’m feelin’ you

[guitar solo]

I’m feelin’ the way you cross my mind
And you save me in the knick of time
I’m ridin’ the highs, I’m diggin’ the lows
‘Cause at least I feel alive
I’ve never faced so many emotional days

Oh, I’m feelin’ the way you cross my mind
And you save me in the nick of time
I’m ridin’ the highs, I’m diggin’ the lows
‘Cause at least I feel alive
I’ve never faced so many emotional days
But my life is good
I'm feelin' you
I'm feelin' you
I'm feelin' you
Oh, I'm feelin' you

Oh, I’m feelin’ the way that you cross my mind
And the way that you save me in the knick of time
Oh I’m feelin’ the way when you walk on by
I feel light, I feel love, I feel butterflies
I feel butterflies

Wednesday, December 9, 2009


I am tired and ready to go home.

This experience in Spain has been absolutely wonderful, exhausting, ground breaking, eye opening, and anything else you can think of... but I'm tired and I miss my friends and family and I want to go home.

My time here is still absolutely fantastic and I go through mixed thoughts of "Wow, I can't believe it is already here! I feel like I just got to Spain!" and "Uh, I'm done now. I feel like I've been here forever!"

When I get back to the States I know that I am going to miss it here. I am going to miss the people, the language, the experiences, all of it. But I am really ready to start my life. I am ready to actually become someone, instead of just learning how to start.

I am ready to work hard at my classes, help out as much as humanly possible with Poly Script, cuddle with my friends, and go out and have fun with them.

Not that I haven't been doing anything here, but it's just that time.

I had a wonderful long weekend in Italy last weekend (read about it in a day or two on my other blog), but now I have to crack down on studying for finals. I have exactly one week before I will be on my way home.

It is so crazy to think about that, but I am relieved.

I need to crash. I need to get home, break down, get hugs, cuddle, relax, see friends, spend time with family... and just, as they would say here, descansar.

On that note, bed time.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009


I know I haven't written in a while (hey, I've been busy!) but I just wanted to share this song with you all because we listened to it in my Spanish grammar class the other day and I'm basically obsessed with it and the rest of the songs on the CD. I know it's in Spanish, but the music is just awesome and it makes you want to dance and sing!!!!

I promise I will write more soon (maybe even tonight if you're lucky)! And some of my new posts will include music and videos and stuff because they are my new obsession.


oh... and this one by the same singer... "Pereza"